I feel... (sigh). That we're not what we used to be. There is no us, it's just me. If only it didn't happen. If only I didn't do what I did. If only you didn't do what you did. Which caused me to do what I did that caused others to do what they did. We all feel the same way, don't we. You know you love, I know you care ~ (insert own lyrics). Must be nice to all. It's kinda hard to sustain friendship, I realized. I'm not who I used to be. I loved being a sec 3. I laughed. I bullshit. I sleep. I was all nonsensical and stuff but hey, at least I was being me. You know I'll totally look past and ignore someone if I didn't give a damn. I don't initiate all the time. I miss life in sec 3. I was really blind and deaf. People had to keep calling and waving to get my attention. Now I have to make myself. And I've decided to keep certain things to myself. I had no secrets, now I do.
Well, I'm still loud.